It’s been a few months now - and all our dreams are sold – not sure how this should be portrayed despite my own missteps – your moves were awfully bold – not quite so subtle anyway I don’t pretend to judge – you’ve got your life to live – and why should your wants be delayed but oh my god you’re fast – you up and packed your shit – got in the car drove away….well, blame me - and no one else – if you cant blame yourself - if you can’t face what’s left inside blame me – I’ve been no help – I left you by yourself - how could I expect that you’d stay mine blame me – I’ve been through hell – just like I blame myself – ‘cause I can’t fix what’s broke inside blame me – my martyred self – I’m mostly hurt, not help - no one can say I ever tried I know it’s all my fault – I know I drove you off – with inconsistent moody ways – but no amount of hurt no amount of wrong – explains how quick I was replaced (and in what way) – you make me wonder if you planned it all along – how long in plotting your escape? So when you think of me – now that you’re good as gone – do you feel love, regret or hate? blame me – I’ve been through hell – just like I blame myself – ‘cause I can’t fix what’s broke inside blame me – my martyred self – I’m mostly hurt, not help - no one can say I ever tried blame me - and no one else – if you cant blame yourself - if you can’t face what’s left inside blame me – I’ve been no help – I left you by yourself - how could I expect that you’d stay mine blame me – I’ve been through hell – just like I blame myself ‘cause I can’t fix what’s broke inside blame me – my martyred self I’m mostly hurt, not help - no one can say I ever tried blame me blame me

Signs It’s been out there waiting – It’s been out there all this time – no sense agitating don’t worry your pretty little mind – this thing’s deteriorating while you’re still looking for a sign if there’s a grander scheming, there’s no intelligent design Seems to me that there are things that go unnoticed through our day a slice of shadow, a slight of hand in which the darkness plays like we all know that things are ending but unwilling to say that it’s complete, the end, fini, we can’t accept decay Plain as can be you chose to ignore What’s right before you, I’ve said it before There’s a reason things are falling apart But you refused to listen right from the start Explain the truth you’re seeking – what kind of statement will suffice? What form of deluded thinking provides the answers that you’d like? It’s clear you gave up making any attempt to do what’s right and as a population, you really disappoint. You won’t believe until the whole damn world comes down upon your door that darkness lurking there, emerges now and hides no more escape from ignorance, the curtain drawn reveals beyond its frame a world that’s drowned in sickness, a world that’s lost in hate Plain as can be you chose to ignore What’s right before you, I’ve said it before There’s a reason things are falling apart But you refused to listen right from the start It’s been out there waiting – It’s been out there all this time no sense agitating – don’t worry your pretty little mind this thing’s deteriorating while you’re still looking for a sign if there’s a grander scheming, there’s no intelligent design Seems to me that there are things that go unnoticed through our day - a slice of shadow, a slight of hand in which the darkness plays - like we all know that things are ending but unwilling to say that it’s complete, the end, fini, we can’t accept decay It’s been out there waiting – It’s been out there all this time no sense agitating – don’t worry your pretty little mind - this thing’s deteriorating while you’re still looking for a sign if there’s a grander scheming, there’s no intelligent design

My Own Summer (Shove It) - a Deftones cover Hey you, big star - tell me, when it’s over (Cloud) Hey You, big mood - Guide me to shelter Cause I’m through when the two hits the six and it’s summer (Cloud) Come (Shove It) Shove (Shove It) The Sun (Shove It) Aside (Shove It Aside) I think god is moving it’s tongue There’s no crowd in the streets and no sun, in my own summer The shade is a tool - A device, a savior See I try and look up to the sky - But my eyes burn (Cloud) Come (Shove It) Shove (Shove It) The Sun (Shove It) Aside (Shove It Aside) I think god is moving it’s tongue There’s no crowd in the streets and no sun, in my own summer Come (Shove It) Shove (Shove It) The Sun (Shove It) Aside (Shove It Aside)

Apology (Reprise) I wouldn't have thought you'd feel this way but it's clear that I misspoke no I hadn't foreseen the offense you'd take now I'm more sorry than you could know there's no reason to think I said it in hate sometimes I speak before I'm sold I was just thinking out loud in my own way and now I'm more sorry than you could know I wouldn't have thought you'd feel this way but it's clear that I misspoke no I hadn't foreseen the offense you'd take now I'm more sorry than you could know there's no reason to think I said it in hate sometimes I speak before I'm sold I was just thinking out loud in my own way and now I'm more sorry than you could know

Lifeguard You must have really been dying on the inside to go to such extents - They must have really hurt you The way you walked straight out, right into high tide Complete and utter disregard for the harm it would do I could tell you were disturbed even before it happened Your face lacked emotion and your eyes appeared subdued It’s as if you now belonged in the deep end You didn’t even struggle as the current took you I can’t save you – You’ve drifted too far out I can’t save you – I can’t even save myself I can’t save you – It’s not really what I do I can’t save you I don’t think you want me to Wave your hand Say goodbye. You are going under You must have truly given up on contentment Your determination really came through From the shore I simply watched with amazement As you moved out further till I couldn’t see you Could it be that you have always had a death wish? That this was bound to happen no matter what I do Or was there maybe some method to prevent this? I guess we’ll never know, we will never have a clue I can’t save you – You’ve drifted too far out I can’t save you – I can’t even save myself I can’t save you – It’s not really what I do I can’t save you – I don’t think you want me to Wave your hand Say goodbye. You are going under

Horizon time to get up again - back into circulation it’s like I’ve always said, all bad things come back around without your presence here this feels like suffication so having realized that, I think it’s time that I get long gone so I’m leaving here and I’m never coming back I’ll be so far gone, over the vast horizon I’m leaving here - there’s no reason that I can’t nothing here to miss, nothing left I care about I’m leaving here ‘cause nothing seems to last find a way to move myself beyond my lost horizons I’m leaving here and I’m never looking back if you’re smart you’ll come and put this all behind you somehow It’s probably not this place, it’s clearly my frustration - the way in which things went and how they let me down although I’d love to say that’s my interpretation, it’s fairly plain to all I ran this whole thing to the ground So now it’s underway I’ll find a new location - Somewhere less populated where the world won’t come around I think before too long I’ll find the motivation - I’ll find my shangri la and by the time you’re back, I’ll be gone so I’m leaving here and I’m never coming back - I’ll be so far gone, over the vast horizon I’m leaving here there’s no reason that I can’t - nothing here to miss, nothing left I care about I’m leaving here ‘cause nothing seems to last - find a way to move myself beyond my lost horizons I’m leaving here and I’m never looking back - if you’re smart you’ll come and put this all behind you somehow nothing i cant replace - no reason left to stay - no bonds i need to break - no reason not to leave right now time to get up again - back into circulation - it’s like I’ve always said, all bad things come back around It’s probably not this place, it’s clearly my frustration - the way in which things went and how they let me down although I’d love to say that’s my interpretation it’s fairly plain to all I ran this whole thing to the ground So now it’s underway I’ll find a new location Somewhere less populated where the world won’t come around so I’m leaving here and I’m never coming back I’ll be so far gone, over the vast horizon I’m leaving here there’s no reason that I can’t nothing here to miss, nothing left I care about I’m leaving here ‘cause nothing seems to last find a way to move myself beyond my lost horizons - I’m leaving here and I’m never looking back - if you’re smart you’ll come and put this all behind you somehow

Control I look at my life like it doesn’t really matter at all I’ve applied myself but recently my efforts have stalled You shared my apathy and reinforced this sad lack of drive You watched me lose myself, become the very thing I despise My false complacency I’m fake, I’m make believe Nothing ‘bout it seems real to me Can’t take myself seriously Without control, I lack control There must be some good reason why I act the way that I do Lack of sincerity up to this point is what’s got me through I’ve said a thousand things I didn’t mean, in words I deplore I’ve been so sickening sweet, I think I might just rot at the core I’ll put it blatantly I’m fake, I’m make believe What you see’s not really me It’s my attempt to be pc I need control, I want control, I lack control, I’ll take control I’ve become so sheltered, my thoughts are solely self consumed So lost in my own life, can’t give a second thought to you I’ve gone to such extents that coming back is too far to go I’m more uniquely troubled than you’ll ever wish to know My tolerance is waning, My patience running thin My self-disgust is rising, I’m rotting from within I can’t hold back these words, these things I wish to say But rest yourself assured, I’ll unload one day In all sincerity I’m fake, I’m make believe Nothing ‘bout it seems real to me Can’t take myself seriously Without control, I lack control, I lack control, I’ll take control

Death - a Skinny Puppy cover holding his hands dream the whole week radiance hissing rodent speak elective evil once started shot struck home so it goes inches towards flattened back on all fours drawn and racked doesn't mean a thing nature perverts itself so it goes so what the hell let it grow regret so full of haste coming clear piss in blood no one should ever have to cut assemble resembled played out wording disturbing quiet saying elaying a message raising cain's revenge got a few no fucking whacked house of cards dealing smack crimson scolding driving told I’m never holding one thing back credit full of nothing slither here one thing back licking dogs no hook no song feeling high fantasize wonder why suck them dry choppy waves take a dive crash enable disabled effect not carried no power in quiet playing resaying never more never again distort the monomaniac delivering the blow core rotten bone distort the monomaniac black mass held upon the radio doesn't mean a thing be it what or ever could doesn't mean a thing sinister creation doesn't mean a thing evocation of the dead moses forbidding it doesn't mean a thing worm like ticking art worth shit we play upon the things we fear the smell is foul where does it fit screw yourself go screw yourself no one should ever have to how do you sleep when it’s still alive never to deep take a look inside

E.S.T. - a White Lies cover If you tell me to jump then I’ll die - In my dreams I’m there I always hoped that I’d learn how to fly - In my dreams I’m there You can tie my hands to the walls but you can’t tie my dreams to this place I might fall like a rock from your heart but you won’t see me fall from grace Fate always loses hope Like electric sparks in my heart Fate always loses hope Now be a good girl and do what you’re told If you tell me to jump then I’ll die In my dreams I’m there I always hoped that I’d learn how to fly In my dreams I’m there I leave my memoirs in blood on the floor and my fears with the nurse on the stairs I’m only going where you’ll be some day so don’t say rest in peace in your prayers Fate always loses hope Like electric sparks in my heart Fate always loses hope Now be a good girl and do what you’re told I hope you remember me - I hope you never pretend for me I hope you remember me - I hope you I hope you remember me - I hope you never pretend for me I hope you remember me - I hope you Fate always loses hope Like electric sparks in my heart Fate always loses hope Now be a good girl and do what you’re told I hope you remember me - I hope you never pretend for me I hope you remember me - I hope you never forget about me I hope you remember me - I hope you never pretend for me I hope you remember me - I hope you

Want Can’t go on pretending - That we don’t notice this We’re something more than meets the eye - ‘cause there’s a hunger there that draws us both together - though we can’t understand the reasons why I feel electric when you’re near me - The room becomes this fading thing The world melts, the light recedes - The motion, like ebbing of seas It’s pushed itself upon us - So I gave in to it’s urgency I keep wondering - Just how it could be - I’d be drawn to you and maybe You’d be drawn to me - However this came to be - Let’s try it on for size Let’s see where it will go at least It’s a time bomb, baby - Just waiting to blow - We can’t wait much longer Now it’s time, it’s time to go - A time bomb, baby - Between you and me Take my hand, we’ll run away - Find out if it was meant to be See the want in your eyes sometimes - See the lust when you’re looking at me See the truth when I look back at you - Get a taste of things and how it could be Feel the warmth when I move beside you - Feel how hot the fire could be What if we should come together? - We’d fit so easily It’s a time bomb, baby Just waiting to blow We can’t wait much longer Now it’s time, it’s time to go A time bomb, baby Between you and me Take my hand, we’ll run away Find out if it was meant to be A time bomb, baby You can feel it, you know We don’t have much longer Before time this all explodes A time bomb, baby We’re targets you see So take my hand, we’ll run away Leave the world behind It could be that easy Want (it’s complicated) - Want (it’s not so easy) Want (to lose yourself, to let it go, to be with me) Want you here with me - Want (it’s complicated) - Want (it’s not so easy) Want (to lose yourself, to let it go, to be with me) - Want you here with me It’s a time bomb, baby - Just waiting to blow - We can’t wait much longer Now it’s time, it’s time to go - A time bomb, baby - Between you and me Take my hand, we’ll run away - (Find out) - Want you here with me There are: 10 different reasons why you can’t be mine, yet 9 of them are useless and 8 I’ve already tried and 7 different ways that this could turn out but only 6 will remain if you get up and go now, there were 5 different times we’ve had this moment be 4 us at 3 a.m. dreamt I’d said it before, there were 2 many times we let this moment slip by, now the time has come, so we should be 1 It’s a time bomb, baby - Just waiting to blow - We can’t wait much longer Now it’s time, it’s time to go - A time bomb, baby - Between you and me Take my hand, we’ll run away - Find out if it was meant to be A time bomb, baby - You can feel it, you know We don’t have much longer - Before time this all explodes A time bomb, baby - We’re targets you see So take my hand, we’ll run away - Leave the world behind It could be that easy

Restless I’ve smoked this right to the filter - Burnt everything there was to burn If there was anything to save, I’ve killed it - I fucked it all up - No, I’ll never learn Made a habit out of being bitter - Which makes things worse of that I’m sure I’m finally giving up - I’m through, I’ve had it - There’s nothing left to salvage Every stone has been turned Maybe I get bored too easy - Maybe I expect too much - Maybe I have no idea I may be crazy but I think I’m done - So what now? We wasted our peak potential - Now we’re stuck stuck in an endless rut I know I’m jaded in how I view things but it seems so helpless - a cause come undone I’m sick of selling myself the same lines - To stay complacent I need to stay numb I’ve exhausted all my options - It’s time to end this nightmare, it’s time I moved on Maybe I get bored too easy - Maybe I expect too much - Maybe I have no Idea I may be crazy but my course seems run I’ve smoked this right to the filter - Burnt everything there was to burn Made a habit out of being bitter - Which makes things worse of that I’m sure Maybe I get bored too easy - Maybe I expect too much - Maybe I have no idea I may be crazy but I think I’m done - So what now?